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MotleyMoxie 47F
91 posts
9/22/2018 9:05 am
Re-share with addition - Stuff I'm Sensitive About

I wrote some of this last year. I decided to edit and add a few little things.

So I've discovered a few things I'm sensitive about. I don't mean like, I get butt hurt and weird about it, just that I wish more people understood the self confidence issues my few "quirks" cause me. So I figured, how about a blog. I haven't done one in a while and I'm sure some of you are getting ready to complain so ......

1. I have aphasia.

Ok, for those of you without a medical degree, aphasia is a condition in which speech doesn't work right, a speaker gets stuck, stutters, or during an anxiety attack or pre-seizure phase can't speak. Often it starts with this mental situation: "I'm brilliant, I can talk and write and speak like a god damned thesaurus so why can't i get this thought out of my head? Great, now I"m stuttering. Now I"m freaked out because no one is going to understand me if I talk high school instead of college professor. Oh great, now I'm stuck and can't talk ...never mind, continue with out me." Generally this happens to people with strokes or other various brain-type issues that cause damage. Me, car accident circa 1999. over 6 days in a coma.

What this means is that I write eloquently. In situations where I'm in control and in command, my confidence is high and I have command of language. So Miss Moxie the Domme hardly stutters or sticks (unless someone does something dumb that gets her stuck) But little Dory Fey, the Moxie Queen,.....once I get stuck anxiety does the rest. It's particularly bad when I'm talking to a Dom I REALLY like or an Alpha male hits a sensitive, embarrassing, or arousing topic ...

I discovered this a while back while talking on the phone with a Dom friend. This is a guy I've actually known as a friend and confidant for YEARS. Suddenly I can't get a clear sentence out of my mouth. He asked me a question, and I sound like a stammering newb. There's a direct disconnect between what my brain wants to say and what my mouth is willing to. Somewhere between the two my self-confidence puts on a diaper and starts moaning like an infant. "don't say that. OMG that's not right either"......

2. Manic aphasia
this is stage 2 of aphasia. This is when the training ...years of training...to combat stuttering come in and I start the breathing process, focus on WHAT is stressing out my speech, facing it, counting to 5 (it's a Lost tv show thing) feeling the fear, saying aloud what it is that's making me get stuck so that it's out there, and then moving on. But at that moment, I'm in linguistic shock, so I start speaking 90 miles a second. Information dump the size of Nessie's loch turds.

3. I have anxiety. I have spent 10+ years working on it through Buddhism, Wicca, Meditation, grounding, energy work and self therapy. DBT and CBT (not the cock kind) I occasionally have issues with it. Please don't treat me like Girl Crazy....Just remind me to breathe and let me do the rest. It rarely raises its head in settings where I am in charge....so I'm assuming it's a control issue.

This, doms is a good time to make this sub girl take a damn deep breath, grab her by the hair or throat and kiss her silent. It's a mind won't shut off thing. Keep in mind some girls in anxiety attacks can't be roughly touched. Another way to help in this situation is to rub a girl's hands or shoulders or feet helps. Gets circulation going, which sends oxygen and dopamine to the brain, breaking the panic)

Lastly, things I'm sensitive about. Cock Size. There's a detailed post in here with all the details if you need more. But if you're over 8 inches, you'd better be a patient guy. I have a bad history with someone the Gods gave more cock than is civilized to have. He hurt me...for a long time. For the longest time anything over 10 inches was a hard limit. (pun intended?) It's a soft limit now (maybe pun not intended) and I am starting to want to find a Daddy or Caring Dom to help me get over this one.

As always, lust and wetness,
the fabulous little miss Moxie


keithandrew1967 56M

9/23/2018 5:38 pm

tease ? I no such word


PetersPen 53M

9/22/2018 1:37 pm

Just keep on writing. I am sure you do that well enough to make us understand you.

with love and power P


xntrick 59M
2927 posts
9/22/2018 12:55 pm

A foot rub does wonders to help someone relax.


keithandrew1967 56M

9/22/2018 9:34 am

dont worry i'm just 7inches i won't hurt u and plus i got some great after care for u


MotleyMoxie replies on 9/22/2018 11:56 am:
Tease!


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